So I need to offload some things. I don't know what but I'll start anyway.
Shaked and me are not talking anymore. arjhfekjhf;kehjd'aposjfapeofkjpfdoka
my stomach is hurting so bad I can hardly breath. I'm crying and I have no no no
idea how to make to make this pain dissolve or atleast move somewhere.
I feel so stuck. so stuck. I can't focus on anything outside of myself for too long.
i keep coming back to this place inside of people not liking me and me trying to please
them. I find it all around me. I saw it today in Mali, Boaz, Saar, Yaron, and numerous
other people in Humanication. I don't know what to do with it. It's this huge hole
trying to get filled with love, approval and attention. In the mean time it is playing
havoc inside of me.