Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Friends to the Journey

I was thinking today how privileged I am to have so many excellent friends with
me on this road I am in. People I can be myself with, people that support me when
I need it, people that love me without me needing to do or be anything I'm not.
This is dedicated to those people. I love you from my heart.

They're just people,
Normal people,
I could have taken them off the street

And yet you're not,
Willing to put yourself out there,
With all your vulnerabilities,

All your hurt,
All your bullshit

Willing to share it with the world,
With me,
I do feel so privileged

Willing to be weak,
Willing to be open to hurt

Willing to share a wonderfully crazy journey together,
To reach where no man has reached before

To your self,
And back

By touching me,
I touch You,

It's as real as it gets

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Rotten in heaven

So I need to offload some things. I don't know what but I'll start anyway.
Shaked and me are not talking anymore. arjhfekjhf;kehjd'aposjfapeofkjpfdoka

my stomach is hurting so bad I can hardly breath. I'm crying and I have no no no
idea how to make to make this pain dissolve or atleast move somewhere.
I feel so stuck. so stuck. I can't focus on anything outside of myself for too long.

i keep coming back to this place inside of people not liking me and me trying to please
them. I find it all around me. I saw it today in Mali, Boaz, Saar, Yaron, and numerous
other people in Humanication. I don't know what to do with it. It's this huge hole
trying to get filled with love, approval and attention. In the mean time it is playing
havoc inside of me.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Loving myself

Loving myself,
No matter what

Any time,
Any day

Feeling down,
Feeling high,
Dirty, pretty
Smelly or fresh

Bad and good,
It is all inside

Flowing and changing,
At any moment,
A new me appears,
And disappears

Stuck and flowing,
Judgemental and accepting,
Productive or slumping

Such an amazing being,
So hard on myself,
Such a waste of time

Enjoy yourself,
Drop the act,
Be you
That shining you,
You are

Love You!